It's been years since I posted, and I'm not sure I truly see the wisdom in bringing again, but I have so much inner turmoil right now I feel as though I need this.
I'm expecting my second set of twins, identical boys this time. And for everything that went ready last time, this tune around has been hard. Not physically on me, but for them.
In December they were diagnosed with Twin-twin transfusion syndrome, meaning the placenta wasn't sharing nutrients/blOod flow. Baby B had little to no amniotic fluid around him, causing him to be "stuck". So we were sent to the Cincinnati fetal care center and had wonderful care and surgery. They recovered perfectly.
However, in our file up care, six weeks later, an amniotic band was discovered around Baby A's upper right arm. We've been monitoring it for three weeks and we'll have a second fetal surgery on Monday. I have so much more to say about that process of again finding ourselves in Cincinnati, but I think my insomnia is finally catching up with me.
It is 6:17 and I've been up since 4am, stressed out about the potential complication of preterm labor from the upcoming surgery. I have today and tomorrow to reconcile myself.
Jesus, Mary, saint Ann, saying Hi Anna, Michael the archangel and all the angels and saints, please help me you find calm and confidence in this process and do everything in your abilities to prevent preterm labor, I beseech you.
More later when my emotions aren't quite so raw.
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